Saturday, May 12, 2012
Monday, May 7, 2012
He deleted his twitter:(
I MISS YOU ALREADY
Why? Why do you have to delete your twitter account? Is it because of your antis? Having a personal problem? Why just tweet 'bye'? "Why" is the only question just popped into my mind since you deleted your twitter.. I've read an article about you deleted twitter account.
April 8, 2012 you tweeted a photo:
After 2 days, April 10,2012.. You tweeted 'bye' via web. It's the first time you tweeted using a computer. Again, why? Few minutes after that you're name doesn't exist anymore.. WHY?
15th of April, I opened my twitter account (http://www.twitter.com/#!/PrinceJangLove).. My daily routine is to check your twitter. I opened my list "BEAST is the B2ST!<3" I didn't saw your past tweets. I thought I unfollowed you so I searched for your username @doublev89. No results, just tweets.. The 1st tweet I saw was by @B2STLYTWEETS.. It says "[!] We have been reading this questions a lot, but yes @doublev89 deleted/deactivated his twitter account. The reason for it hasn't revealed". WTF! I became sad, my heart aches so much.. My eyes wants to pour some tears but I can't! I'm really shocked. I tried to search for your username again but nothing appeared. My hands are shaking & couldn't type well. I really want to cry that time.
After surfing the net, I walked with a straight face.. Not minding the things that goes around me.. I feel like I'm walking alone in this world & no one is alive.. My heart is really shattering.. The question just keep running through my mind.. "Why? When? How?"
Why? Why do you have to delete your twitter account? Is it because of your antis? Having a personal problem? Why just tweet 'bye'? "Why" is the only question just popped into my mind since you deleted your twitter.. I've read an article about you deleted twitter account.
April 8, 2012 you tweeted a photo:
15th of April, I opened my twitter account (http://www.twitter.com/#!/PrinceJangLove).. My daily routine is to check your twitter. I opened my list "BEAST is the B2ST!<3" I didn't saw your past tweets. I thought I unfollowed you so I searched for your username @doublev89. No results, just tweets.. The 1st tweet I saw was by @B2STLYTWEETS.. It says "[!] We have been reading this questions a lot, but yes @doublev89 deleted/deactivated his twitter account. The reason for it hasn't revealed". WTF! I became sad, my heart aches so much.. My eyes wants to pour some tears but I can't! I'm really shocked. I tried to search for your username again but nothing appeared. My hands are shaking & couldn't type well. I really want to cry that time.
After surfing the net, I walked with a straight face.. Not minding the things that goes around me.. I feel like I'm walking alone in this world & no one is alive.. My heart is really shattering.. The question just keep running through my mind.. "Why? When? How?"
Until now, I'm expecting you to return in twitter. Also, a lot of fans is expecting you to. Jang Hyunseung oppa! Please comeback! Please! I truly miss you so so much!:"( every time I think of you, you who deleted his twitter account, it always makes me cry.. Cry silently.. A cry that anyone wouldn't see nor hear.. A cry which I kept only to myself.
One day, I watched a video of you & Dongwoon dancing "Trouble Maker". I can clearly see there that you are very happy.. I thought to myself "He's very happy. I can see. Acting like nothing happened. He doesn't even know I exist. I, who cries for him. I, who misses him so much. I, who cares for him. I, who loves him like no other fangirl loves him. I, who hurts so much because of him. I, who prays for him to return in twitter. And I, who hopes to see & hug him personally"
Same that day, it rained.. I went out of the house & sat on a bench.. I think about you again, staring at the raindrops that falls on the ground. Just then, a tears from my eyes just fell.. Sad again..
Now, I'm still hoping for your comeback in twitter. I even changed my username from @PrinceJangLove to @IMissdoublev89 . I'll keep praying. I am a girl, a girl who doesn't loose hope. I love you HYUNSEUNG oppa!
Confession of a girl..
All that she wants is just to be recognized by the one he loved.
Song: Apink - Mymy
"Why? Why is every time I had a crush on someone, he never likes me.. Is there something wrong with me? Am I ugly? Stupid? Bad? Not sweet? WHY?" this are the things I kept questioning to myself..
Here's my story:
Second month as a freshmen student in college.. It was midterm week, July.. In school, after taking the first subject. We are waiting outside the room.. While my eyes were exploring around that building, someone caught my eye.. He looks like my bias in k-pop. My eyes got big when I saw him, I can't even take my eyes off of him. I want to approach him to ask his name but I can't. I tried not to focus on him so I chatted with my friends.. After taking the whole exam that day, I went home alone. I rode a jeep near to our school. When I looked out I saw this guy again. My eyes gets big again o.O my heart is panicking, alert, beating fast.. He's with his three friends; two girls, one boy. They midst me. When their girl classmate lend me her pay to the driver, I lend it to him. Deep inside, I'm very happy.
Three weeks after, I never saw him. I thought he's not worth seeing for. So I forget him but I keep looking at the room where I first saw him.. One day, me and my classmates are going to our computer room, I checked this room again. WOAH my eyes! o.O I SAW HIM! I really saw him! I called out my friends immediately so they would see his face. My mind keeps saying "I want to know his name. How? I want to talk to him. How? I want to be friends with him. How?".. In the middle of the class, I keep thinking about him and I want to see him that exact time! I told our professor that I'm gonna pee but it's just an excuse so I can have this sameway. I went out together with a friend. When I opened the door, I saw him! I immediately said "kuya! Kuya! Kuya!" but he didn't heard me :'( I repeated "uii kuya! kuya!" still no respond. But his friend told him that I'm calling him so he looked at me but I joked "ay! snob naman si kuya eh!" he apologized for not hearing me because he thought I was calling his friend not him. When I was about to ask for his name, a professor just blocked our conversation. Grr! >.< but he waited. While waiting, he's looking up so I called out again "uii kuya!" aaah! Didn't heard me again. I said "kuyang naka puting t-shirt" he looked. LOL!:D I didn't hesitate to ask his name. I'm so happy when he answered me and I thanked him then leave but poor ears of mine didn't understand clearly. I asked my friend if she heard it clearly but she said NO too.
After two weeks, I'm not able to see him again. I kept looking to all the rooms in the building just to saw him. One time, while waiting for our Math professor, I noticed that the room in front of us was his course. I looked at it and my eyes is exploring the whole room expecting to see his face. LUCKY ME! I did! I called a friend again who has the courage of asking his cellphone number. All of my and his classmates, issued us by getting his number. So embarrassing but at the same time, so nervous and happy:)
That night, I texted him and we were able to know each other. I know I have a crush on him. Yes, I do! And I told myself that only crush not love because I only love my biases in k-pop..
Few months later, it's a university week of our campus. Someone said that he's gonna perform in Battle of the Band. I want to support him really. But the time is kinda not good. So I wished him luck but they didn't win. He said it's okay because they just did it for fun. One week after that, we watched a show in Audio Visual Room. I asked him if he's in the movie. I was embarrassed when he and his friend laugh >__< I angrily said "bakit? Ano nakakatawa sa tanong ko?! May nakakatawa ba ha!?" they didn't answered and his friend just leave us alone so we can talk privately. I asked him a lot of questions but he's a sober! Really a sober! I'm so mad so I just left him there. My friends told me that he's not the right guy to be fall inlove with so by next semester I must have new crush. I tried but I can't, I'm just lying to myself and telling that I don't care nor miss him anymore.. I tried to ignore the fact that he's still the one..
December came, I'm not having a communication with him until this day come. It was my friend's birthday celebration.. We drunk, I was out of control that day and I fought him through text, I want to prevent myself for fighting him because I know I don't have the right, I'm not even his girlfriend. While drinking, I cried. My friends told me, too. But I keep telling myself not to expect anything from him..
Chistmas vacation:
I tried not to communicate with him, but I failed. I greeted him "merry Christmas" and got no response. 1 day before new year, I'm shocked when I saw his name appeared on my phone and greeted me an advance happy new year. Stupid me, I immediately put a load on my sim just to greet him back.. After 12 midnight, me and the whole street celebrates new year. My best friend had a load for calls so I thought of calling him to greet. I was really really happy whenat I was drunk so they said that I must go home. While in the tricycle with my friend, I want to cry because of anger but I can't.. When we seperated, I was shocked when HE texted me something that made me cry really, I was in a line that time and I wasn't able to avoid my tears to fall. I looked at the sky and asked God why I'm like this.. He, the guy, comforted me and keep saying sorry for the bad things he had done to me.. Before the day ends, we're okay already. I'm so touch by his kindness to me, I even think that he has a feelings we talked to each other, he told me not to drink much. I just said bye bye to him but he keeps on talking.. He was so funny.
Song: Apink - Mymy
"Why? Why is every time I had a crush on someone, he never likes me.. Is there something wrong with me? Am I ugly? Stupid? Bad? Not sweet? WHY?" this are the things I kept questioning to myself..
Here's my story:
Second month as a freshmen student in college.. It was midterm week, July.. In school, after taking the first subject. We are waiting outside the room.. While my eyes were exploring around that building, someone caught my eye.. He looks like my bias in k-pop. My eyes got big when I saw him, I can't even take my eyes off of him. I want to approach him to ask his name but I can't. I tried not to focus on him so I chatted with my friends.. After taking the whole exam that day, I went home alone. I rode a jeep near to our school. When I looked out I saw this guy again. My eyes gets big again o.O my heart is panicking, alert, beating fast.. He's with his three friends; two girls, one boy. They midst me. When their girl classmate lend me her pay to the driver, I lend it to him. Deep inside, I'm very happy.
Three weeks after, I never saw him. I thought he's not worth seeing for. So I forget him but I keep looking at the room where I first saw him.. One day, me and my classmates are going to our computer room, I checked this room again. WOAH my eyes! o.O I SAW HIM! I really saw him! I called out my friends immediately so they would see his face. My mind keeps saying "I want to know his name. How? I want to talk to him. How? I want to be friends with him. How?".. In the middle of the class, I keep thinking about him and I want to see him that exact time! I told our professor that I'm gonna pee but it's just an excuse so I can have this sameway. I went out together with a friend. When I opened the door, I saw him! I immediately said "kuya! Kuya! Kuya!" but he didn't heard me :'( I repeated "uii kuya! kuya!" still no respond. But his friend told him that I'm calling him so he looked at me but I joked "ay! snob naman si kuya eh!" he apologized for not hearing me because he thought I was calling his friend not him. When I was about to ask for his name, a professor just blocked our conversation. Grr! >.< but he waited. While waiting, he's looking up so I called out again "uii kuya!" aaah! Didn't heard me again. I said "kuyang naka puting t-shirt" he looked. LOL!:D I didn't hesitate to ask his name. I'm so happy when he answered me and I thanked him then leave but poor ears of mine didn't understand clearly. I asked my friend if she heard it clearly but she said NO too.
After two weeks, I'm not able to see him again. I kept looking to all the rooms in the building just to saw him. One time, while waiting for our Math professor, I noticed that the room in front of us was his course. I looked at it and my eyes is exploring the whole room expecting to see his face. LUCKY ME! I did! I called a friend again who has the courage of asking his cellphone number. All of my and his classmates, issued us by getting his number. So embarrassing but at the same time, so nervous and happy:)
That night, I texted him and we were able to know each other. I know I have a crush on him. Yes, I do! And I told myself that only crush not love because I only love my biases in k-pop..
Few months later, it's a university week of our campus. Someone said that he's gonna perform in Battle of the Band. I want to support him really. But the time is kinda not good. So I wished him luck but they didn't win. He said it's okay because they just did it for fun. One week after that, we watched a show in Audio Visual Room. I asked him if he's in the movie. I was embarrassed when he and his friend laugh >__< I angrily said "bakit? Ano nakakatawa sa tanong ko?! May nakakatawa ba ha!?" they didn't answered and his friend just leave us alone so we can talk privately. I asked him a lot of questions but he's a sober! Really a sober! I'm so mad so I just left him there. My friends told me that he's not the right guy to be fall inlove with so by next semester I must have new crush. I tried but I can't, I'm just lying to myself and telling that I don't care nor miss him anymore.. I tried to ignore the fact that he's still the one..
December came, I'm not having a communication with him until this day come. It was my friend's birthday celebration.. We drunk, I was out of control that day and I fought him through text, I want to prevent myself for fighting him because I know I don't have the right, I'm not even his girlfriend. While drinking, I cried. My friends told me, too. But I keep telling myself not to expect anything from him..
Chistmas vacation:
I tried not to communicate with him, but I failed. I greeted him "merry Christmas" and got no response. 1 day before new year, I'm shocked when I saw his name appeared on my phone and greeted me an advance happy new year. Stupid me, I immediately put a load on my sim just to greet him back.. After 12 midnight, me and the whole street celebrates new year. My best friend had a load for calls so I thought of calling him to greet. I was really really happy whenat I was drunk so they said that I must go home. While in the tricycle with my friend, I want to cry because of anger but I can't.. When we seperated, I was shocked when HE texted me something that made me cry really, I was in a line that time and I wasn't able to avoid my tears to fall. I looked at the sky and asked God why I'm like this.. He, the guy, comforted me and keep saying sorry for the bad things he had done to me.. Before the day ends, we're okay already. I'm so touch by his kindness to me, I even think that he has a feelings we talked to each other, he told me not to drink much. I just said bye bye to him but he keeps on talking.. He was so funny.
Happy mother's day!
MAMA PING PING!
To a mom who is always dramatic, a mom who thinks like a teenager, a mom who looks like a 35 year old lady. I think of that mom who used to share my dreams and brush my hair. HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
No other than..
MAMA PING este mama Peng pala! Hihi!^^
Eomma, thanks for everything! For your kindness to us, for being understanding.. I'm sorry for being spoiled hope someday you'll understand what my passion is.. Being with you is always my BEST DAYS..
Thanks for protecting me from DADO! Oh yeah, speaking of DADO, let's leave him:"( I don't want leaving with him anymore. APPA (papa) told me, if you don't want me to be seperated to you, let's find an apartment in QC..
THE DRAMATIC MESSAGE:
I will be a person with pretty heart and become a person who is selfless. I’ll keep the love of your wishes..
Though I’ve made hurtful wrong choices, you silently watched over me from behind & still support me..
I'm already 18 but still like an innocent child, can I do things without you? I’m afraid that I don't have enough courage & it will still lack..
I’ll be a wise daughter of yours, just give me courage.. I will be a proud daughter no matter where I go because you too, the same..
I’ll keep your love. I'll show endless love. I will have a warm heart..
Even I had nothing to give, you continue doing your best to give me everything and I'm just accepting it. You don't know it, but to be honest. I really appreciate it a lot!
Although I can't remember your appearance when I first met you, but I'll remember your last appearance until I die..
With all my heart, I love you mama!
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Masyado na mahaba.. Nosebleed nako! HAHA!
Happy mother's day again!
Te amo, ai shiteru, gwa ai di, saranghae, I love you.. Kahit anong wika pa yan, basta! MAHAL KITA mama! :*
Love,
TATING.Ü
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