All that she wants is just to be recognized by the one he loved.
Song: Apink - Mymy
"Why? Why is every time I had a crush on someone, he never likes me.. Is there something wrong with me? Am I ugly? Stupid? Bad? Not sweet? WHY?" this are the things I kept questioning to myself..
Here's my story:
Second month as a freshmen student in college.. It was midterm week, July.. In school, after taking the first subject. We are waiting outside the room.. While my eyes were exploring around that building, someone caught my eye.. He looks like my bias in k-pop. My eyes got big when I saw him, I can't even take my eyes off of him. I want to approach him to ask his name but I can't. I tried not to focus on him so I chatted with my friends.. After taking the whole exam that day, I went home alone. I rode a jeep near to our school. When I looked out I saw this guy again. My eyes gets big again o.O my heart is panicking, alert, beating fast.. He's with his three friends; two girls, one boy. They midst me. When their girl classmate lend me her pay to the driver, I lend it to him. Deep inside, I'm very happy.
Three weeks after, I never saw him. I thought he's not worth seeing for. So I forget him but I keep looking at the room where I first saw him.. One day, me and my classmates are going to our computer room, I checked this room again. WOAH my eyes! o.O I SAW HIM! I really saw him! I called out my friends immediately so they would see his face. My mind keeps saying "I want to know his name. How? I want to talk to him. How? I want to be friends with him. How?".. In the middle of the class, I keep thinking about him and I want to see him that exact time! I told our professor that I'm gonna pee but it's just an excuse so I can have this sameway. I went out together with a friend. When I opened the door, I saw him! I immediately said "kuya! Kuya! Kuya!" but he didn't heard me :'( I repeated "uii kuya! kuya!" still no respond. But his friend told him that I'm calling him so he looked at me but I joked "ay! snob naman si kuya eh!" he apologized for not hearing me because he thought I was calling his friend not him. When I was about to ask for his name, a professor just blocked our conversation. Grr! >.< but he waited. While waiting, he's looking up so I called out again "uii kuya!" aaah! Didn't heard me again. I said "kuyang naka puting t-shirt" he looked. LOL!:D I didn't hesitate to ask his name. I'm so happy when he answered me and I thanked him then leave but poor ears of mine didn't understand clearly. I asked my friend if she heard it clearly but she said NO too.
After two weeks, I'm not able to see him again. I kept looking to all the rooms in the building just to saw him. One time, while waiting for our Math professor, I noticed that the room in front of us was his course. I looked at it and my eyes is exploring the whole room expecting to see his face. LUCKY ME! I did! I called a friend again who has the courage of asking his cellphone number. All of my and his classmates, issued us by getting his number. So embarrassing but at the same time, so nervous and happy:)
That night, I texted him and we were able to know each other. I know I have a crush on him. Yes, I do! And I told myself that only crush not love because I only love my biases in k-pop..
Few months later, it's a university week of our campus. Someone said that he's gonna perform in Battle of the Band. I want to support him really. But the time is kinda not good. So I wished him luck but they didn't win. He said it's okay because they just did it for fun. One week after that, we watched a show in Audio Visual Room. I asked him if he's in the movie. I was embarrassed when he and his friend laugh >__< I angrily said "bakit? Ano nakakatawa sa tanong ko?! May nakakatawa ba ha!?" they didn't answered and his friend just leave us alone so we can talk privately. I asked him a lot of questions but he's a sober! Really a sober! I'm so mad so I just left him there. My friends told me that he's not the right guy to be fall inlove with so by next semester I must have new crush. I tried but I can't, I'm just lying to myself and telling that I don't care nor miss him anymore.. I tried to ignore the fact that he's still the one..
December came, I'm not having a communication with him until this day come. It was my friend's birthday celebration.. We drunk, I was out of control that day and I fought him through text, I want to prevent myself for fighting him because I know I don't have the right, I'm not even his girlfriend. While drinking, I cried. My friends told me, too. But I keep telling myself not to expect anything from him..
Chistmas vacation:
I tried not to communicate with him, but I failed. I greeted him "merry Christmas" and got no response. 1 day before new year, I'm shocked when I saw his name appeared on my phone and greeted me an advance happy new year. Stupid me, I immediately put a load on my sim just to greet him back.. After 12 midnight, me and the whole street celebrates new year. My best friend had a load for calls so I thought of calling him to greet. I was really really happy whenat I was drunk so they said that I must go home. While in the tricycle with my friend, I want to cry because of anger but I can't.. When we seperated, I was shocked when HE texted me something that made me cry really, I was in a line that time and I wasn't able to avoid my tears to fall. I looked at the sky and asked God why I'm like this.. He, the guy, comforted me and keep saying sorry for the bad things he had done to me.. Before the day ends, we're okay already. I'm so touch by his kindness to me, I even think that he has a feelings we talked to each other, he told me not to drink much. I just said bye bye to him but he keeps on talking.. He was so funny.
Song: Apink - Mymy
"Why? Why is every time I had a crush on someone, he never likes me.. Is there something wrong with me? Am I ugly? Stupid? Bad? Not sweet? WHY?" this are the things I kept questioning to myself..
Here's my story:
Second month as a freshmen student in college.. It was midterm week, July.. In school, after taking the first subject. We are waiting outside the room.. While my eyes were exploring around that building, someone caught my eye.. He looks like my bias in k-pop. My eyes got big when I saw him, I can't even take my eyes off of him. I want to approach him to ask his name but I can't. I tried not to focus on him so I chatted with my friends.. After taking the whole exam that day, I went home alone. I rode a jeep near to our school. When I looked out I saw this guy again. My eyes gets big again o.O my heart is panicking, alert, beating fast.. He's with his three friends; two girls, one boy. They midst me. When their girl classmate lend me her pay to the driver, I lend it to him. Deep inside, I'm very happy.
Three weeks after, I never saw him. I thought he's not worth seeing for. So I forget him but I keep looking at the room where I first saw him.. One day, me and my classmates are going to our computer room, I checked this room again. WOAH my eyes! o.O I SAW HIM! I really saw him! I called out my friends immediately so they would see his face. My mind keeps saying "I want to know his name. How? I want to talk to him. How? I want to be friends with him. How?".. In the middle of the class, I keep thinking about him and I want to see him that exact time! I told our professor that I'm gonna pee but it's just an excuse so I can have this sameway. I went out together with a friend. When I opened the door, I saw him! I immediately said "kuya! Kuya! Kuya!" but he didn't heard me :'( I repeated "uii kuya! kuya!" still no respond. But his friend told him that I'm calling him so he looked at me but I joked "ay! snob naman si kuya eh!" he apologized for not hearing me because he thought I was calling his friend not him. When I was about to ask for his name, a professor just blocked our conversation. Grr! >.< but he waited. While waiting, he's looking up so I called out again "uii kuya!" aaah! Didn't heard me again. I said "kuyang naka puting t-shirt" he looked. LOL!:D I didn't hesitate to ask his name. I'm so happy when he answered me and I thanked him then leave but poor ears of mine didn't understand clearly. I asked my friend if she heard it clearly but she said NO too.
After two weeks, I'm not able to see him again. I kept looking to all the rooms in the building just to saw him. One time, while waiting for our Math professor, I noticed that the room in front of us was his course. I looked at it and my eyes is exploring the whole room expecting to see his face. LUCKY ME! I did! I called a friend again who has the courage of asking his cellphone number. All of my and his classmates, issued us by getting his number. So embarrassing but at the same time, so nervous and happy:)
That night, I texted him and we were able to know each other. I know I have a crush on him. Yes, I do! And I told myself that only crush not love because I only love my biases in k-pop..
Few months later, it's a university week of our campus. Someone said that he's gonna perform in Battle of the Band. I want to support him really. But the time is kinda not good. So I wished him luck but they didn't win. He said it's okay because they just did it for fun. One week after that, we watched a show in Audio Visual Room. I asked him if he's in the movie. I was embarrassed when he and his friend laugh >__< I angrily said "bakit? Ano nakakatawa sa tanong ko?! May nakakatawa ba ha!?" they didn't answered and his friend just leave us alone so we can talk privately. I asked him a lot of questions but he's a sober! Really a sober! I'm so mad so I just left him there. My friends told me that he's not the right guy to be fall inlove with so by next semester I must have new crush. I tried but I can't, I'm just lying to myself and telling that I don't care nor miss him anymore.. I tried to ignore the fact that he's still the one..
December came, I'm not having a communication with him until this day come. It was my friend's birthday celebration.. We drunk, I was out of control that day and I fought him through text, I want to prevent myself for fighting him because I know I don't have the right, I'm not even his girlfriend. While drinking, I cried. My friends told me, too. But I keep telling myself not to expect anything from him..
Chistmas vacation:
I tried not to communicate with him, but I failed. I greeted him "merry Christmas" and got no response. 1 day before new year, I'm shocked when I saw his name appeared on my phone and greeted me an advance happy new year. Stupid me, I immediately put a load on my sim just to greet him back.. After 12 midnight, me and the whole street celebrates new year. My best friend had a load for calls so I thought of calling him to greet. I was really really happy whenat I was drunk so they said that I must go home. While in the tricycle with my friend, I want to cry because of anger but I can't.. When we seperated, I was shocked when HE texted me something that made me cry really, I was in a line that time and I wasn't able to avoid my tears to fall. I looked at the sky and asked God why I'm like this.. He, the guy, comforted me and keep saying sorry for the bad things he had done to me.. Before the day ends, we're okay already. I'm so touch by his kindness to me, I even think that he has a feelings we talked to each other, he told me not to drink much. I just said bye bye to him but he keeps on talking.. He was so funny.
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